Loft Diaries 001: Not What I Expected 😒
We are almost reaching summers end when I started writing this blog post, I’ve been living in my brand new loft for almost 4 months now, and well, it’s not what I expected.
Insert tears and hear the violin playing softly in the background. For the amount of money I’m spending every month, idk I just expected more. I’m literally laughing out loud as I write this, but i’m also serious AF. Nothing drives me insane more than spending money on something and it not being what I thought it was going to be.
Let me paint a mini clear picture for you
My loft is in a brand new building. The loft is beautiful, the building itself is also beautiful, but there has been issue after issue since I moved in. To the point where it’s been almost 4 months and 50% of my things are still packed away in totes. (Side-note: I hate moving with boxes; I always use totes, anyway). After my first 2 weeks here, I noticed my shower head was dripping. It took 6 visits over the course of about a month and a half to get it properly fixed. Yes, for weeks I endured hearing my shower drip, drip, drip all thru the night.
Considering I am a super light sleeper, this felt like pure punishment. Even though it has been sometime since its been “fixed” (I say that with quotes because the beauty of my ring cam suggest the “fix” is temporary)…I am still adjusting, trying to get back to my proper sleep schedule. Once I am thrown off, especially for such a long period of time, my internal clock resets to the new pattern. Not that I sleep much anyway; my sleep habits definitely give vampire girl 🧛🏾♀️.
Moving On
Outside of the shower issue, there have been multiple other back to back problems as well. But the one thing that grinds my gears the most is when people say, “oh there’s always issues in a new building”.
That may be so, but having this many issues back to back when I'm spending MY money, in short : “I think TF not”.
Which is exactly why my things are still half packed for the most part: I am heavily considering breaking my lease because it has been overwhelming for me. Feeling like I am in fight or flight at home is just not something I want to have to deal with. Note: I like order and flow. Saying the same thing over and over again to adults is just too much. Basically, because I am a solution based person, when things outside of my control take too long to be fixed or done, it's extra annoying for my personality type.
Solution Phase
So now I am in “solution phase”, because complaining and whining is never my thing. Thus far, I’ve discovered via other issues that building owners are only willing to go so far with solutions.
Meaning my level of fix and their level of fix is different - mine being higher.
Here’s the thing: I am very understanding, probably overly so. I tend to always see all sides. But as I said before, when I am spending MY money, I want things to be done at a certain level. I often feel like a “Karen” in this building; but listen, I do not care. Say it with me now “My Money, My Way”. It's a lifestyle baby 😏
The Kicker
As of now; I won’t be breaking my lease simply because it would cost 6k to do so. But even more so, the goal is to stick to my plan. Because I want to move to a different city after this lease is up. Therefore, signing a new lease in Philly would just prolong my time here. Moving to a new state before my lease ends here would basically be me giving away 6k to people I feel duped by.
Collectively, with all those factors in mind, I’ve decided to make the best of it, for now. Tomorrow, I could feel differently. I don’t know how many more maintenance request and management emails I have left in me. The main thing that has been bothering me the most out of this whole situation is that I moved here with a plan…but you know what they say about plans.
My initial goal was to make this a home ASAP, get back on my creative grind, and build a brand I have been wanting to launch for a while. But in 24/7 fight or flight mode, I find it difficult to get my footing. I’m already a true creative, meaning my mind is everywhere all at once. This heavily induced fight or flight mode almost put me in standstill mode, as I didn’t feel fully clear on which direction I was going.
For the love of clarity
But something switched towards the end of July. That’s when I decided to push through to the end of the lease and stick to the original plan. In that decision, I started working on this idea I had for a while.
I’ve always wanted to make my own journal and planners. To know me, is to understand that I am very open-minded and adaptable, but I also love structure and systems. I’m literally like 2 opposite sides in one body. It’s a bit odd how my mind functions in opposites that somehow work together. Kinda cool if you ask me.
Per usual, Google seems to always know what I'm thinking. I kept seeing ads and social media videos about digital and PLR products. After looking into it, I purchased a few, but those PLR layouts quickly turned into my own creations. The journal and planner I always wanted to make for myself began taking shape in my Canva designs, providing spark amidst the outside chaos.
Investing in those PLR systems got my creative juices flowing, and a brand I had been wanting to build was officially born! I have a whole rollout phase planned, so you wont find out what the official brand is until around December. But in the next blog post, I will tell you about Phase 001.
Chat Soon,
Koven
